in the fall we go on weekend walks to columbia university's greenmarket and eat breakfast on campus. it's become a tradition right down to what we eat and where we sit. two apple cider donuts for ed, an apple spice muffin for me, and purposely dropped crumbs for sam wiggins.
sam looks older in this photo and it rips out my heart. he also stole a strawberry from the bag right after this photo, so you know.
students walk by and we overhear conversations about exams, papers, and professors. a sense of relief or stress is usually found in their voice. ed and i give each other a wise smile as it all seems so ridiculous to us now. but then, in the moment.... it was real life, cut throat, make the grade pressure. i have to wonder, what will seem so ridiculous to us in our mid-30's when we look back to right now? i have to hope it's the constant pressure i put on myself to have it all figured out. my 35 year old self will laugh at my 28 year old self and realize i've had it figured out all along.