in the present.

Monday, February 4, 2013

the daily muse

we didn't leave the house much this weekend and i try to be ok with that. the urge to be going going going doing doing doing is ever present in my mind and being still goes against my impulse. i've been in one of those moods where i want to move the couch where the chair goes, switch the pillow covers, wash the shower curtain (?), and buy clear containers to replace my shoe boxes. you'd think i was nesting, minus the small human.

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then i remember there are spring/summer weekends in which we log miles on our bikes across the island of manhattan and i remind myself... "to everything there is a season."

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living in the present is a difficult mindset to master. i will someday (soonish) look back at my 20's and realize the only thing i did was spend it being anxious about the future. everything works itself out and i know that because i have the past to prove my point. it was five years ago that we lived in a shoebox with crummy jobs and i'm grateful to say that is no longer the case.

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living the weekend in the present would mean foregoing a to-do list to feel useful and instead watch back to back re-runs of selling new york on HGTV. side note- these people offering all cash on a $2.5 mil apartment... who are you? and don't eff it up for me someday because i have a (gasp!) LOAN from the bank like a normal person on a non $2.5 mil penthouse.

ps: those dang roses have lasted a whole week. i should give up my pinkberry addiction for fresh flowers.

25 comments:

marissa (stylebook) said...

beautiful! i'm gogogo too. it's... a problem. :)

Katie said...

okay... where are the bed sheets from? this wouldn't be a blog if someone didn't ask! :-)

rebecca said...

katie-
it would not! :)

duvet cover is west elm and the blanket is dwell studio (a few years ago).

Danielle E. Alvarez said...

Oh my do I know exactly what you mean. I could've very well said: " i will someday (soonish) look back at my 20's and realize the only thing i did was spend it being anxious about the future" myself. It's almost funny how recognizing that doesn't take care of all that anxiety though, huh? Hope your weekend was at least relaxing enough to rejuvenate you for the week ahead :)

Jill V. said...

Agreeing with you on everything! We had a nice, no errands weekend also and it felt wonderful!

Right there with you on the Pinkberry!

nicole said...

I really love your place.

And I need to wash my shower curtain and replace the liner. Ugh.

xo.

susan said...

HA! I've been wondering the same about those cash people...WTF?! I'm so addicted to all the "selling" city shows. It's good to be in the present...having children kinda forces you to be, and I've found it to be very refreshing. Are you SURE you're not pregnant?! Sounds like hardcore nesting lady. ;)

shoegirl said...

I hear you on staying in and doing nothing, but I'm getting more OK with it than I used to be. Perhaps it's because I'm not in my 20s anymore, or perhaps it's the German way of life where EVERYTHING is shut down on Sundays, so you are forced to relax. Not a bad mentality - just have to make sure to have enough milk on Saturday!

shoegirl said...

Also - every photo of Sam Wiggins always makes me wish I could reach through the computer and pet his fluffy fur. Such a cutie.

rebecca said...

shoegirl-
i wish you could too!

Ashely said...

anxious about the future? guilty as charged. thanks for the reminder to slow down and look around me. great post, as always!

Stine said...

I live in Europe and just discovered Selling New York on one of the cable channels a couple of weeks ago and now I can't stop watching. I was thinking the exact same thing WHO are these people!!! Serious jealousy going on here as I look around my itsty bitsy tiny London flat.

Kayla Poole said...

I have a chronic case of this. always planning, always seeking, always bettering, always dreaming. It's been my nature since I was a child, so I'm not quite sure how to change it. although, i'm also not sure I want to. planning is exciting!

ugh, the endless predicament.

Rebeka said...

I could not agree more with your statement about living in the present and the anxiety that your 20s holds. That totally resonated with me and I think I especially needed to read that today to remind myself to calm the F down. You are awesome, & thank you for that piece of wisdom.

rebecca said...

calm the eff down rebeka!!! :)

lucent imagery said...

I totally agree with your sentiments here. I have been reflecting and writing a few words about my season rhythms. I tend to get out for longer in winter. We're in summer here in Australia and the days can be too hot for my liking (coupled with my allergy to sunscreen on my face), so I have noticed over the last few years how my summer patterns involve more nighttime, early morning, late afternoon movements. I sometimes fight that feeling that "everyone else" loves the summer heat and is out in the middle of it, so I should be too. But then I remember why and embrace the beautiful patterns I've found that work for us. Sunset walks and warm dinners after dark are wonderful in summer. So is air con at home! And nesting!

Anonymous said...

Where is that chair from? I'm obsessed!

rebecca said...

anon-
thanks! knoll womb chair.

Andi of My Beautiful Adventures said...

You have the cutest dog in the world OMG!!!!

Tracy said...

lovely post and photos, as always. thank you for the reminder on embracing presence.

Lena at A Crimson Kiss said...

I have been known to spend the better part of a weekend curled up in bed–sometimes you just need 'em. I think lately I've been able to put my anxiety-meets-excitement about the future toward actually DOING something about it, and excitement is definitely edging out everything else!

Monica L. Shulman said...

I love these posts from you. The honesty and "realness" of YOU is palpable.

You and I are so similar (we KNOW this already). I think every age brings with it its own set of stresses and anxieties. As someone who is (quickly) approaching her late-30s I can honestly say that the need to always be doing something is still there but it's not always so necessary. Having a kid sort of taught me (finally) to really live in the moment bc you realize just how quickly time goes. Nothing gives me more joy than being with my little girl and filling our days with trips to the park, the museums, where ever but it is seldom quiet and there is always some kind of activity. I love and enjoy those moments bc they are what life is all about. and now the "quiet" moments are when we sit down to read books, color, play with the dollhouse or host "dinner parties" with her stuffed animal friends. When I was younger I would feel like my day was a wash unless it was jam packed with a million things and now with a toddler and one on the way, I sort of miss those afternoons when we just sat around and had actual quiet. And what I worry about most is how quickly time passes and how it's silly to worry bc I just need to enjoy the present. Imagine...worrying about worrying?

Shoko said...

this is so wise, becca! i love, love, love your writing. living in the moment is a struggle for me, too. but given how much i feel nostalgic for the past sometimes, i know i'm doing myself a disservice by wasting the present worrying. someday i'll wish i had these days back - thinking about that is a great reminder to live in the moment.

Anonymous said...

what upholstrey is on your womb chair? plywood stacks? it's so, so perfect.

rebecca said...

anon-
thanks! cato sand.

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