summer in photos.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

summer in photos

i've had a hard time forming words into actual sentences this week and an overwhelming sense of anxiety is filling my lungs. this summer may hold a lot of change in our household, and at the same time, this summer may hold absolutely nothing besides fresh berries at the farmer's market turned into multiple cobblers. i'm trying to wrap my head around one or the other and it's the uncertainty that feeds the anxiety. 

summer in photos

i fill the blog with superfluous material things that enter my brain and for whatever reason i deem these things necessary to share with a handful of people. but behind all that, there are huge questions consuming my brain as of late. to be correct, there is always something more consuming on my brain than foldable luggage, but the visual distraction is freeing. the importance lies in not placing emphasis on the having and the wanting of the things, which then circles back around to comparing ourselves to others. it goes without saying, i make an effort to curate the prettiest of things to put on the blog, but behind the scenes my brain may actually explode and start to ooze out my eye sockets. hey, now you know. 

summer in photos
summer in photos
summer in photos
summer in photos

no matter what happens, summer will go as it should.... juicy peaches, freckled shoulders, and translucent light. there's comfort in that.

gorgeous photos by jennifer causey.

18 comments:

marissa (stylebook) said...

i hope everything goes your way, and works itself out sooner than later. i know that anxiety is not a fun sidekick. unfortunately, my blog existed during THE worst period in my life-- and i had no choice but to slap pretty images on it during those months. in hindsight, it was the perfect outlet. xo

Erin said...

Life can get messy on the other side of the computer, huh? I hope your uncertainty doesn't last, and that you can soak up some of the essentials of summer no matter what else is going on. Those pictures do a great job capturing the season.

Mary said...

Yep. Blogging is a distraction, and a way to focus on the positives, and a way to connect, and...it is many things, but a reflection of real, true, honest and sometimes-ugly life...it is not.

Jesse said...

ug, anxiety is the worst! i've been verbalizing all mine in my dreams lately and keeping my poor husband up with sleepy requests like, 'can you fix the drain in the shower, i'm worried a rat is going to come up the pipe?' and yes, these make no sense to anyone.

Rebeka said...

Oh man, anxiety and worry is the worst. I hope things work out for you and that you are able to breath again soon. Until then, blogging is always a good distraction, right? The connections and the pretty and other good things can be a good way to take your mind off things, at least for me. Internet hugs!

Sara S said...

Though I (and every other blogger ever ever ever) love to look at pretty images and project my best self, I personally feel more connected and empowered by people letting loose a little bit. It's easy to feel disconnected when you are interacting with people through a screen. But fortunately, it seems like this whole blogging community is made up of nice, wonderful, understanding and empathetic humans. If you want to spill a bit and let your eyes melt out of your sockets, I'd like to think I speak for most others, we got you. Though I do love the idea of foldable luggage too...

rebecca said...

sara-
i mean it folds down to 3" ... come on! thanks for the note. :)

leah ruth said...

oh such pretty photos, and folding luggage... dude, fold-able anything, sounds like the perfect, and maybe well needed, little distraction from whatever may be on your plate.

*sigh* it's way more fun to get lost looking at and reading your blog, than to worry about how to pay off student debt...

idahuntic said...

I'm sorry to hear you've had anxiety about life and the future and I can certainly empathise! It's especially tricky when you want to portray something for yourself and for others to read that doesn't necessarily reflect how you feel. The worst thing about anxiety is that whatever happens will happen, regardless of how much you worry about it, which is so frustrating! I hope things do get easier and work out for you though :)

Monica L. Shulman said...

You could have read my mind today bc this post is basically made up of the words that have been swirling around my own head for months. The uncertainty is what gets to me the most but as time goes on and you get past the inevitable chaos of a stressful situation you realize that you're stronger than you thought possible. Being on the other side of it is always easier but at least you (and my you I mean I) can try to find comfort knowing that there is indeed another side.

Thanks for sharing the real shit, my friend. x

Lena at A Crimson Kiss said...

I think pretty is valuable, if for no other reason that it serves as a wonderful distraction while your eyes ooze out from your head. To freckles and strawberries and whatever the future brings.

bethan said...

I always take solace in the idea that everyone has more going on that we will ever know. It is comforting when my mind is a mess. x

Anonymous said...

Sam Wiggins. He da man. Hay x

in dreams said...

well, at least it'll be a pretty mess, if your brain does end up exploding. you've got some amazing thoughts up there, i can't imagine them not looking good on the way out. bring it on!! <3

one claire day said...

I hope Summer brings you what you need.

(and just remember. breathe. ) x

Sarah Scott said...

I much prefer a post like this as opposed to a short post about foldable luggage. ;)

SeriousBabyFever said...

I'm happy to hear I'm not to only one! I've been having some major anxiety about the future lately. And I'm not even an anxious person. I've heard 2013 is the year of major changes, changes that we couldn't make in the past for whatever reason. This year we will be pushed and will be unable to stop it.
So let's all take a deep breath, go with the flow as much as possible and know that after the storm has passed, the sunshine will be beautiful. :)

oneawkwardyear said...

Hi Becca - long time reader, first time commenter. I wanted to thank you for sharing the real. As someone who suffers quite a bit of anxiety,I appreciate your openness. And take comfort knowing that your gorgeous aesthetic for the prettiest things gives ME comfort when I'm feeling unmoored! Here's hoping summer gives you peace, clarity...and plenty o' berries. xx Liz

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